Anorexia is very difficult for people to understand. Many see it as a harmful lifestyle choice. The truth is, it is a mental disorder, and it is no more a choice than depression or schizophrenia. Some people wonder, what is it like for an anorexic to go through the day in life? The answer is to accept something tough.
But let’s think…
You wake up in the morning and your stomach is growling. You take a shower and when you get out, look at yourself in the mirror. You spend 10 to 20 minutes staring at your belly, munching fat here and there, nursing your stomach, thinking you’ll look 5, 10, 20 pounds less.
Before you put it on, you weigh yourself. You weigh yourself naked because you are afraid that anything, even socks, will add weight to the scale. You will have to enter it about 3 times until you are satisfied with the correct number. If the number is higher than yesterday or a tenth of a pound, you will feel like you want to die. If it is lower, you are momentarily happy, but remind yourself that you have a lot to go.
Dress yourself and go down to the kitchen, see that everything is available to you, but you end up having something to bite. You tell yourself that the feeling of hunger is good, that you need to keep strong, that you want to give yourself.
You think about food all day. You go to work or school, socialize and laugh, but in your head you only think about food. As much as you want, you cannot have reasons, how you will avoid this meal and cut calories /a> in that meal.
You have given yourself a maximum of daily calories, a number that is probably 5 to 10 times below what your normal intake should be. If it stays below, it is a good day. If you go over, even by 10 or 20 calories, you are disgusted. He is so tired that you feel like you could cry.
Spend your time online looking at pictures of models and researching every tip in the book. How to dress to look slimmer, what foods will fill you up faster, what exercises will tone your muscles tone will fill you up.
Exercising with minimal energy is due to the lack of nutrients in your system. You feel like you’re failing, but you’ll push yourself anyway. This voice in your head tells you how thin it is.
You start having a mental list of “safe” foods. You fear certain foods so much that if you are up against them, you feel like crying. In fact, perhaps. You can’t eat with friends anymore because you can’t stand not knowing everything calories in your food And they can’t stand watching.
It hurts to sit because you will feel your bones grinding against the chair. You will find that your hair is falling out as usual. In the first attack you will be at risk of osteoporosis and possibly a heart attack.
You spend the night lying in bed, thinking about what you are going to do to eat yourself tomorrow you will not sleep until you are awake.
You have your moments throughout the day when you fight with yourself. Just force yourself to eat where you want. Times when you know what you’re doing to yourself, and you’re nothing but scared.
But the voice of anorexia becomes so strong and powerful that you feel the truth is forced into some corner of your mind, struggling to be heard. You don’t know what to do or who to turn to, because you feel that no one understands.
At last you fall asleep, not knowing whether you will wake up in the morning.
The next day you do it again.
So please, before you make any judgments about anyone treating this very serious disease, know that the pain goes through every day.
And if you know someone who is suffering from an eating disorder, get help as soon as possible.
